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[22 Sep 2008|06:02pm] |
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Im gonna get through this-Daniel Bedingfield |
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he ya'll im not dead yet
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| Walzting Matilda |
[07 Jul 2008|07:53pm] |
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I heard this song on JAG..I actually like it they played it when Brumby was going back to Austrialia
Once a jolly swagman camped by a billabong
Under the shade of a coolibah tree.
And he sang as he watched and waited 'til his billy boiled
"Who'll come a-Waltzing Matilda, with me?"
Waltzing Matilda, Waltzing Matilda
"You'll come a-Waltzing Matilda, with me"
And he sang as he watched and waited 'til his billy boiled,
"You'll come a-Waltzing Matilda, with me".
I like it oh welps oh i go
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| watever |
[22 Jun 2008|08:04am] |
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I hate Everything about you-Three Days Grace |
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yea yea yea fuck you 2
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| love is blind |
[19 Jun 2008|10:01am] |
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Eve-Love is Blind |
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hey, yo I don't even know you and I hate you
see all I know is that my girlfriend used to date you
how would you feel if she held you down and raped you
tried and tried but she never could escape you
she was in love and I'd ask her how? I mean why?
What kind of love from a nigga would black your eye?
What kind of love from a nigga every night make you cry?
What kind of love from a nigga make you wish he would die?
I mean shit he bought you things and gave you diamond rings
but them things wasn't worth none of the pain that he brings
And you stayed, what made you fall for him
that nigga had the power to make you crawl for him
I thought you was a doctor be on call for him
smacked you down cause he said you was to tall for him, huh?
that wasn't love babygirl you was dreamin'
I could have killed you when you said your seed was growin' from his semen
(Repeat twice)
Love is blind, and it will take over your mind
What you think is love, is truly not
You need to elavate and find
I don't even know you and I'd kill you myself
you played with her like a doll and put her back on the shelf
wouldn't let her go to school to better herself
she had a baby by your ass and you ain't givin' no help
uh-huh, big time hustler, snake mother-fucker
one's born every day and every day she was your sucker
How could you beat the mother of your kids?
How could you tell her that you love her and
don't give a fuck if she lives
she told me she would leave you, I admit it she did
but came back, made up a lie about you missing the kids
sweet kisses, baby ain't even know she was your mistress
had to deal with fist fights and phone calls from your bitches
floss like you possed it, tellin' me to mind my business
that it was her life, and stay the fuck out of it
I tried and said just for him I'll keep a ready clip
(Repeat Twice)
Love is blind, and it will take over your mind
What you think is love, is truly not
You need to elavate and find
I don't even know you and I want you dead
don't know the facts but I saw the blood pour from her head
see I laid down beside her in the hospital bed
and about two hours later, doctor said she was dead
had the nerve to show up at her mother's house the next day
to come and pay your respects and help the family pray
even knelt down on one knee and let a tear drop
and before you had a chance to get up you heard my gun cock
prayin' to me now, I ain't god but I'll pretend
I ain't start your life nigga but I'mma bring it to an end
and I did, clear shot and no regrets, never
cops come in and lock me up under the jail
nigga whatever my bitch, fuck that my sister
you could never figure out even if I let you live
what our love was all about
I considered her my blood and it ain't come no thicker
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| *sighs* |
[17 Jun 2008|10:01am] |
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Only One-Yellowcard |
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Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
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| People=Shit |
[13 Jun 2008|01:14pm] |
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People=Shit-Slipknot |
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OH my fucking GOD i hate this place..."We think it's fucked up you took food over to him from OUR potluck"...well bitch excuse me...that's just a tiny pearl on this string of bull shit....i fucking hate this place...i dont wanna work here..they think they're such hot shit...and there was food left over..man fuck this place..and everyone in it...fucking dumbass people.I had a nice little break though..Miss came out here from Cali...came to visit..and so did Arwen from NJ...so im not to angry..and 2morrow i get to Busch Gardens...and i get to fucking 4get about this place....i think this song accuratly describes how i feel...
Come on!
Here we go again, motherfucker
Come on down, and see the idiot right here
Too fucked to beg and not afraid to care
What's the matter with calamity anyway?
Right? Get the fuck outta my face
Understand that i can't feel anything
It isn't like I wanna sift through the decay
I feel like a wound, like I got a fuckin'
Gun against my head, you live when I'm dead
One more time, mother fucker
Everybody hates me now, so fuck it
Blood's on my face and my hands, and I
Don't know why, I'm not afraid to cry
But that's none of your business
Whose life is it? Get it? See it? Feel it? Eat it?
Spin it around so i can spit in its face
I wanna leave without a trace
Cuz I don't wanna die in this place
People = Shit(x4)
People = Shit (Whatcha gonna do?)
People = Shit (Cuz I am not afraid of you)
People = Shit (I'm everything you'll never be)
People = Shit
Come On!
It never stops - you can't be everything to everyone
Contagion - I'm sittin' at the side of Satan
What do you want from me?
They never told me the failure I was meant to be
Overdo it - don't tell me you blew it
Stop your bitchin' and fight your way through it
I'M - NOT - LIKE - YOU - I - JUST - FUCK - UP
come on mother fucker, everybody has to die
(2x)
People = Shit(x13)
People = Shit (Whatcha gonna do?)
People = Shit (Cuz I am not afraid of you)
People = Shit (I'm everything you'll never be)
People = Shit
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| Thickening the air I'm breathing |
[28 May 2008|07:57pm] |
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Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.
Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.
Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.
I see the way you go and say your right again,
say your right again
heed my lecture
Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down a new life she has.
Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..
Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..
One day she will tell you that she has had enough
its coming round again.
Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.
Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.
Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..
I HATE U JON
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| how i feel |
[16 May 2008|11:50am] |
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watching Flipping Out on Bravo |
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My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we
are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savouring this heart that's healing
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savouring this heart that's healing
And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you
I'm alive (I'm alive), I'm alive (I'm alive), I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savouring this heart that's healing
Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savouring this heart that's healed
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| Writer's Block: Reacting to my bad mood |
[14 May 2008|09:42am] |
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Beanie Man-King of Dancehall |
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I actually have a routine. I come home..i turn up the radio dont even care what on..usually i pop in a dance mix...then i dance around the kitchen while mixing up brownies (or some other bakeable snack)..Once im done i clean the kitchen virgorously..then i sit at my computer and look up silly youtube videos...i take a hot bubble bath..then Jon comes home with kids and my whole day is much btter
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| or is it? |
[13 May 2008|09:12am] |
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Coldplay-The Scientist |
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Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh ohh (x4)
That's out of the wa....Bought Sweeney Todd 2 days ago..it's good..Johnny Depp is hot
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| YAY!!!! |
[11 May 2008|05:46pm] |
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watching CSI |
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HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!!!
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| Finally |
[09 May 2008|01:16pm] |
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watching Kathy Griffith |
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The weight of the world is comming off of me now. I've been crying since this morning..And it feels amazing I've ben crying about alot of thing but mainly I'm finally comming to grips with the fact the Jon my love is leaving us for 15 months. Individual Augmentee FUCKING ARMY!....If you Army guys are so great why then hell are you using our sailors.
For those of you who dont understand Individual Augmentee of IA is when members of one unit get put into a another unit in order to fill or "augment" said unit. Right now Navy and Air Force personnel are "Augmenting" the Army. My question is why not just use the Air Force they used to belong to Army. Yup the Pilots in the Army back in those days were part of the "Army Air Force". Then after WWII they broke away and became the Air Force. But, anyway Jon is going IA but he's not eeven going to be doing "Doc" stuff. Yes when you go Ia the DOES NOT mean you are going to be doing you're normal job. Yea but yea now i get to kill time for 1 year and 3 months. Wonderful.
Im done
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| jesus |
[09 May 2008|12:50pm] |
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I thought about killing you..Im a horrible person..my little girl...my little girls..the two of you..i thought about it for the both of you...im evil..
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| Writer's Block: It's Too Late to Apologize |
[07 May 2008|08:20am] |
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Homies-ICP |
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He tainted Phantom of the Opera for me. I hate the Air Force and all flyboys because of him. He was my close friend for five years. My boyfriend of 2 years had left me and he was there. He said all the things i needed to here. Pretty words and hollow empty promises. I hate you. The fact the after it happened you called and apologized and made me feel like it was my fault to this day makes me feel sick to my stomach! I hate you you took something from me. I hoper your wife eventually figures out what kind of man you are.
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| Writer's Block: Good Catch |
[21 Mar 2008|11:09am] |
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Chic N Stu-System of a Down |
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"Aint this about a bitch"
"Fuck me gently with a chainsaw"
"Fuck me sideways"
"That's boo boo"
*said with Jersey accent* "You my friend are a friggin MORON"
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| Writer's Block: Happy St. Patrick's Day! |
[17 Mar 2008|09:24am] |
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Drunken Lullabies-Flogging Molly |
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Sitting at work at my desk with my gianormous prego belly thinking "I'd kill for some warm green beer"...Wishing I could go home to Jersey go to Matawan and eat the green pizza they got going. Stupid Navy...Oh well Happy St.Paddy's DAY!!!
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| HOLY CRAP |
[22 Feb 2008|03:54pm] |
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My chemical romance-Ghost of you |
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IM NOT DEAD YET!
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| bleh |
[19 May 2005|09:50pm] |
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Ozzy Osbourne-21st Century |
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im using up the last of my energy to type this...PT=HELL!!!!...omg it was great but horrible...oh the horrors...and that was just a taste of bootcamp....1st Drilling...then..the real fun of PT began...8 count body builders...moutain climbers...V formation crunches...Flutter kicks...push-ups...cherry pickers...regular crunches...Navy SEAL sit ups..then Ultimate frisbee...OUCH!!...matt made it up to me by buying me Dunkin Donuts...havent seen Star Wars..oh but i will...i will!!!
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